If you're a listener of popular radio at the moment, you might realize that the title of the blog today is from the song "Echo" by Trapt.  Yep, that explains a couple of things that I feel today.

Okay, I haven't done a lot today.  I woke up at 11, which is really strange for me, considering I get up at 10:30 or earlier (as long as it's on my own, I really don't care).  When I went into the kitchen, I realized that both of my parents are gone.  I knew my mom was at the doctor, but I didn't know where Dad was.  I then saw a note saying that he went to go look for a new building for the shop.  Why doesn't he just give up! That shop is nothing but trouble.  We keep losing money because of it, and he thinks that if he moves somewhere that he might get somewhere.  I doubt it seriously.  I think the people who bought Dixie Outfitter shirts (which is what he really likes to sell I think) are sort of tired of them.  (NOTE: If you want some shirts, go to http://www.paulsbargains.com where we sell them :-P)  But I guess if it gets the old man out of the house (I mean that literally, he's 69), by all means go ahead.  He doesn't need to spend all of his time here.  I think it drives him and me and mom crazy.

I also went to that place that they call work today.  I love that place I think.  I don't know why.  It sure isn't the minimum wage that they pay me.  It isn't the drunk golfers that come play day in and day out.  It isn't the free golf, considering I don't play golf but very little.  I think it's just the atmosphere.  It's great! And for those of you who don't know where I work, I work at a golf course driving golf carts.  Fun sounding?  Most of the time, yes.

And yet, because it is the summer, and because I have time, I've been thinking.  I don't think I should have ever listened to "Echo."  Or maybe I think that because it explains what I should do.  Maybe I should "close my eyes" and "let the whole thing pass me by."  I need to let go of my pride sometimes, and I surely need to forget the past because no matter what it will never change.  Yes, I've had some of the best experiences and some of the worst.  Many times both of them were in the same place, which is usually around my truck.

One last line from Trapt: "I know I always loved you."  I believe that.  The word loved is in past tense.  I can't change that.  But I can change now.